Codependent

Hello, my name is Miss Kayla and I'm codependent.

What does that mean you may ask. Well, it's fairly difficult to define since the definition is as fluid as the person who is codependent. What it means for me, Miss Kayla, is that pretty much I'm addicted to "helping" people. I'm also invested in having "messed up" people around me so I can "fix" them and then feel better about myself. I focus on everyone else around me so I don't have to fix me. I don't know how to draw a line between being helpful and being a doormat. I thrive on people depending on me. I worry about things that I can't change, that aren't even issues in my life. I worry about my friends and their friends and families and are they OK, are they getting what they need, stuff like that.

My therapist says that most likely this stems from my being "too good" (his words not mine). And I really struggle with this since my lifestyle, my core belief system is focused on helping other people, giving service, being charitable and Christ-like.

I don't know how to just let other people figure things out when they're asking for my help. I don't know how to let things go that I cannot control. I'm an addict!! And I need help.