Day dreamin'

So, I totally stole this idea from Mal (I tried to link to her blog, but I don't know how apparently)

Almost 2 months ago now I was helping a friend find a new place and her soon to be landlord was telling us about some random stuff in his life when it came up that my birthday and his were only 2 days apart. At which point he asked me "How do you control all your other lives? You know, your daydream lives." And I responded, "I don't have 'other lives'" His rebuttle, "Yeah, you do! It's part of being born when we were. I mean in my daydreams I cook better, I look better, I'm a better parent, I'm a better hiker, all sorts of things." I laughed, because he's really good at getting people to laugh and just relax, and then realized that I DO do that!

So in no particual order here are a few of my day dreams/things I look forward to.


Dreaming in Arabic

Stepping off the airplane in a foreign country for the first time

Getting lost in a new place and then finding my way back

The perfect pair of shoes

Taking an AMAZING photo to remember an AMAZING day for a life time

Giggling like there's no tomorrow with someone who has my eyes

Just because flowers

Winning bets with kisses ('casue if you 'lose' you still get a kiss!)

Dancing with the locals



What do you day dream about?

Runnin' from My Memory

I move on like a sinners prayer
I let 'em go like a levee breaks
walk away as if I don't care
learn to shoulder my mistakes
I'm built to fade like your favorite song
gettin' reckless when there's no need
laugh as your stories ramble on
break my heart but it won't bleed
my only friends are pirates, it's just who I am
I'm better as a memory than as your man.

I'm never sure when the truth won't do
I'm pretty good on a lonely night
I move on the way a storm blows through
I never stay, but then again, I might
I struggle sometimes to find the words
always sure until I doubt
walk a line until it blurs
build walls too high to climb out
but I'm honest to a fault, it's just who I am
I'm better as a memory than as your man

I see you lean in, you're bound to fall
I don't want to be that mistake
I'm just a dreamer, nothing more
you should know it before it gets too late

cause goodbyes are like a roulette wheel
you never know where they're gonna land
first you're spinning, then you're standing still
left holding a losin' hand
but one day you're gonna find someone
right away, you'll know it's true
that all of your seeking's done
it was just a part of the passing through
right there in that moment
you'll finally understand
that I was better as a memory than as your man
better as a memory than as your man

Work Ethic

So right now I'm in the Temp pool for the University of Utah and I'm on assignment through the school of medicine's burn unit for a research study. I like what I'm doing ok, it can be hard though to read about how people got burned and what complications they had, or if they survied or not. My biggest "issue" is the fact that I'm working myself out of a job. I seem to do it at every assignment I'm given, I start with a few tasks and as I prove I can do more my load increases or I get sent home early becuase there's simply nothing for me to do. Sometimes it's just annoying to have such an engrained work ethic! I'm starting to get a little nervous about the assignment I'm on, when I started there were 100 cases to be done, as of today I'm more than half way finished and I'm pretty sure I'll be done by mid-May, my boss said she'd be thrilled if I were done by the end of June. I haven't seen any job listings from UTemps, and I don't know if that's just because I'm on a long term assignment so they don't send them to me or if there just isn't a need for temp work right now. I'm scared.

Miss Kayla

Holding Pattern

Do you ever feel like you're life is like an airplane in a holding pattern? You have your destination, you're ETA (Estimated Time of Arrival), but it just seems like you're flying through mud to get there? I don't know what's going on, I just feel like my 4 year plan is too far away and I want to give up and walk away. :/

Clarification

So you may or may not know this about me I'm currently a Middle Eastern studies major so you may naturally assume a few things about me. Shall I clarify what you may be thinking???

Yes, I think I shall.

While I am thankful for my freedom and all those that have sacrificed SO much for me, the more I know about what my country has done, the more I'm concerned about what we've done.

I'm not a bleeding heart nor am I a right wing nut, I believe in being educated and then acting upon that knowledge to the best of my ability and my conscience.

I'm not joining any radical terrorist groups.

When I tell you that I'm interested in the Middle East, that is NOT an open invitation for you to ask me whatever rude question you feel like. I don't have to answer to you, I'm not asking or seeking your permission to follow something I'm interested in so please don't act like I need it because I know I don't.

When I tell you that I'm learning Arabic, that again doesn't warrant you're stamp of approval or disapproval. Also you asking "Why?" with a snotty look on your face really just shows me how IGNORANT you are.

While I am not a Muslim I respect and honor their right to believe what they want and think that in a country such as this they should be allowed to practice those beliefs without fear of harassment.

I think that people need to respect the fact that we all have the same right to free speech; that DOESN'T mean you have to AGREE with what someone else is saying, but you do need to respect that right.

It really wouldn't kill you to learn about another religion/country/area/point of view.

Shukran!!
Miss Kayla

The Beginning

So, this will probably be a pretty boring blog filled with rambling notes and mish-mashed thoughts and jumbled whatevers.

It's my blog so I can do that, if you don't wanna know how I'm feeling or what I think then DON'T read this!

K, Thanks!