Whole

I'm at my cousin's house which is always bittersweet. I LOVE my cousin and her little family they're such amazing, kind, generous, fun people to be around. But it was here in her home that I tried to first pick myself up when my world was shattered and sometimes when I'm here my memories take over and it gets difficult to be here.

I just want to be whole again. I know this hole in my heart is no longer bleeding profusely like it was when I lived here, but every time I'm here I feel a couple stitches rip and I HATE that. I detest it! I don't want to feel this way. How do I change it?

Memories

So I'm at the laundromat and a young guy comes in and as he walks past the combination of the sweat and tobacco coming from him instantly transports me to a time not so long ago that I'm still trying to escape. Sometimes I really dislike that about scent and memories being so intertwined. Usually times like this. :/

Miss Kayla

The University of Utah

So today I went to the University of Utah to the financial aid office and took yet another step toward getting my degree in Middle Eastern studies!

It felt really good. It felt like I have my feet on the right path again. I'm excited for this new chapter. I'm scared and worried about failing but I'm going forward.

This is going to be tough and I'm probably gonna want to stop but I hope I remember this day and how hopeful I feel. I pray that the Lord will be with me and give me the courage to continue when it would be easier to quit. I know this will change me and it's my intention to be changed into a better person.

Miss Kayla

Testing an app

I'm not very good at this but I'm trying an app on my phone that I'm hoping will help me post more often.